My So Called Family-Blogging-Freelancing Life
Blogging has been on the back-burner lately. I have blog posts lined up, but can't seem to finish them to publish them. This is somewhat a good thing, because I have clients that keep me busy. Well my clients, my kids, and our puppy keeps me extremely busy. I never ever ever ever ever never never have time, for anything. So that is the bad part. I want a vacation, I want to play my Sims 3 game (lol), I want to read a book, and I just want to sleep.
Designing might also be on the back-burner soon (I hope not, though). The military/Army are letting go of officers at an alarming rate. My husband and I both are nervous about it. The Army could let him go at anytime. This is a real fear. So with freelancing there is no real guarantee or financial stability. I have to find a job. Sigh. I have been seeking employment for three years. Never got a call, never got an inkling of hope that I would get hired. I thought since I was a college grad, a former federal employee with tons of experience and with military spouse preference, I would get a job so easily. But, nope. So I sort o stopped looking for jobs, and focused on being a freelance designer. Since I am in the beginning stage, I have no consistent income. So after applying for over 200 jobs in a span of 3 years, I am very discouraged about applying and then if I am lucky, going to an interview. I've been out of of work for three years and I almost 31. I am very very doubtful about getting back into the workforce.
I am thinking about the needs of my family. We need financial stability and security. My husband needs a sound back-up. However, what will happen to my dream? Trying so hard to keep my faith, but it so hard when you have been told "No" or been rejected for three years.
This is definitely not a "woe is me" post. I have so much to be grateful for. Just needed to write out my thoughts...